Unapologetic hiatus

Bella at the NH Collection Amistad Hotel in Cordoba, Spain

I know I have not been posting or writing for more than a month. It was deliberate and I have no excuse other than taking care of my wellness and sanity.

I needed to live. I needed to breathe.

I needed to be with people I choose to be with. I needed to be rid of social obligations that just weighed me down.

I needed to let go of people who were not good for me.

I was trying to avoid my usual crash-and-burn phase.

And I didn’t want to lie about it.

The Spain trip did me a whole lot of good. It afforded me time to be with Arshad, outside of our day-to-day grind, only to be reminded that I married someone that I perfectly get along with, in terms of habits, preferences and rhythm.

It also allowed me to reflect on my choices and path, and that I can change decisions immediately without looking back. That reflections should be made, but not regrets.

Bella in Mezquita Cordoba

I hope to write more often, but between writing and saving my sanity and myself, I’m gonna have to choose the latter.

I’m borrowing what the poet Brittin Oakman wrote:

“I lied and said I was busy.
I was busy;
but not in a way most people understand.

I was busy taking deeper breaths.
I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.
I was busy calming a racing heart.
I was busy telling myself I am okay.